YOU'RE STILL MY MAN

I am ornithophobic.since i was little,i have this abnormality and it's weird.:)) by the way,"Ornithophobia" means fear of birds. :P
I remember one day,,when i was little, was about 5 or 6 years old,my dad used to have chickens in our backyard.One day he asked for my help while i was playing with my cousins,one hen got out of its cage,and he needed to get it back of it.Though i'm so scared,i said okay.As a child,i always want to be the "bida".So he chased the hen,i was standing near the cage ,shaking and nervous,he let me hold the hen while he was fixing the cage.I was then crying,and shaking,i can still picture myself ,very little and holding a fat black hen with my little hands.The whole time i was crying,shaking and looking at my dad,as if i was begging him to take the hen from me.He would just look at me,and will shout at me"saglit lang!" so even though i was so scared,i can't let go of the hen.I was so scared that he would hit me on my butt. :))And so it was done.He got the hen,and let me play again.that was 11 years ago..

my dad and i had a small chat while we were watching tv...

"takot ka pa rin hanggang ngayon sa mga ibon?"
"oo,sobra parin,lalo na sa itik"
"kasalanan ko yun eh"
"bakit?"
"naalala mo dati,yung matabang manok na pinahawakan ko sa'yo?"
"ahh,, oo sobrang laki nun,parang pabo na nga eh"
"nakakaawa ka noon ehh,kita ko talagang namumutla ka na,tsaka nanginginig,ehh hindi mo naman mabitawan kasi,takot ka rin saken"
"haha! panu ko ba naman mabibitawan,eh sumisigaw ka na"
"akala ko kasi,mawala ang takot mo,pag tapos nun,di rin pala"...

and those words made me smile,,so that was his purpose.To make me overcome my phobia..I thought it was just a punishment for playing too much instead of sleeping in the afternoon... :))

So i grew up being a daddy's girl,he was always there for me,my secret buddy,my spiritual adviser,my best friend.He knows when i'm down,and we'll eat ice cream 'til i stop frowning and smile.He taught me how to drive not like a pussy,but to drive like him.I remember how pissed i am when he shouts at me."i-overtake mo yun" i'll say,"may kasalubong tayo",he will shout at me,"aabot yan,overtake!".I'll paddle to the gas till i pass every car that i see,with my heart beating so fast and hands so cold on the steering wheel.

6 am -that was a monday,LTO
I'm getting my license.My dad with me(ofcourse).
After filling up all the papers,I wasn't prepared to drive an owner type jeep for the actualization!
The last time i drive was like a 2 months ago,i don't know if i still know how to drive haha!
So,i told my dad..

"daddy,magda-drive daw ng owner ehh"
"ikaw,ayaw mo na ba?uwi na lang tayo?"
"ayaw,sige..kaya ko yan"

I got back to my sit,and he raised his thumb,mouthing words"kaya mo yan."
It was my turn. I look around and i didn't see him.Anyways while i was inside the jeep,i told my self "come-on,ilang oras kami naghintay dito,si daddy,naiinip na,di pwedeng masayang yung lakad namin"
And i did it. =] i looked for my dad,and he gave me a high five.I was so happy, can't stop smiling,o-m-g.i'm gonna cry,but i didn't (that's stupid,) HAHA! i'm overeacting now, i know that's an easy thing to do :))
But what made me happy,was seeing my dad so excited as if he was a child getting a new toy.He joked about buying a D'max ,Isuzu pick up that we both love..i said"sus..stirr" and we both laughed.At that moment,i discovered my happines,,and that is making him happy and proud.
He would always give me what i want,even at the moments that i dont deserve it at all.He would always make me happy,while at times i dissapoint him.At that moment i've
come to realize that my happiness was to be the daughter that he deserves.Yes,i'm a spoiled rotten,I'm not the "Catherine the great" that i always wanted to be,but with my dad, i feel like it. I'm a daddy's girl,and i know my mom hates me for being such,but i love my dad,not because would always buy me new stuffs,not because he would give me money to fool around with,not because he would give the food that i crave for,not because he would let me hold the remote control and make him watch fashion tv,but because i love him.just him.

years will pass,I will have my own family.I'm will have my husband,but one thing's for sure.No one can ever love me the way he do :)He would criticize me,he would say i'm terrible,when i truly am,and would always try to make me stronger.He would always support me in all my ambitions,but always make me see the reality.He would scold me when i did something stupid,but cradle me when i am down.

I'm growing up,and he's getting older.If there's a long term goal that i should accomplsih,it is to make him happy and fulflilled for the rest of his life and show him,that there he molded me into a beautiful soul. =]

drop it like a hot potato :)

hmm..una sa lahat,salamat sa mga nagtiyagang bumasa ng first ever ever ever blog ko,maraming salamat! haha feeling ko naman ,at infairness,marami nagtext sken,humihingi ng advice!? anu ako? si Dr. LOVE??? haha don't get me wrong,nakakaflatter yun, ang cute,kasi di naman ako hustler pagdating sa love ehh.. :))

anyways,eto yung mga problemang narinig ko sa mga araw na namayapa ang aking kaluluwa kaya di ako nakapagblog ulit :p alam mo pards,medyo natatawa ako ehh,kasi alam naman nila yung sagot sa mga problema nila,pero bulag bulagan ang eksena.. di ko na masyado hahabaan isa lang naman ang gusto ko ipahiwatig.hmmm friends,i care so much about you,eto para sa inio! :*

-sa mga taken na medyo nafo-fall out of love,
-sa mga ex na patuloy na naghahabol sa kanilang mga ex,
-sa mga may mga tamang hinala,
-sa mga hindi na masaya sa kanilang relasyon,
-nanloloko,
-nagpapaloko,
-niloloko ang mga sarili..


drop it ! :)

ito ay para sa lahat...
***wala po yang patutunguhan,kawawa lang kayo parehas sa huli..
sa previous blog ko sinabi ko na bigyan ng dignidad ang sarili,pag hindi na naayon sa kagustuhan mo ang mga ngyayari..it's best to let go,ang pagsuko hindi nangangahulugan ng "pagkaduwag",kung talagang matapang ka,dapat alam mo kung kelan ka dapat sumuko diba :)
in the end,sasaya ka pa rin (atleast natapos na ang kalbaryo mo)..kasi kung talagang minahal mo ang isang tao,walang masarap na breakup,lahat masakit..kahit gaano pa kahinahon ang pag-dump mo sa iyong partner,masasaktan mo parin siya..(pano ko nalaman???)BASTA haha Marami na akong nakita ,narinig na experience about this stuff so yeeaahh..yun ang opinyon ko,hindi ko sinasabing kelangan nio ko sundin,again,(choice mo yan ehhh) pero kung hindi na healthy ang relationship ..alam nio na :) Again and again..makakahanap ka rin ng tao para sa'yo,ang pagmove-on hindi nangyayari overnight.,.syempre proseso yan. ang masasabi ko lang wag mo pahirapan sarili mo.maraming tao sa mundo..(sa mga tinamaan,buti naman) :P

* know wutt im sayin? :))
let's be happy! free your spirit from crap :P

TAPOS.THE END.AHH-UHM!

save a life,save a heart

ganito kasi un kid haha first time ko gumawa ng blog so okay gagawa ako as if ako lang ang makakabasa =D

i'm 17 years old,and i never had a boyfriend,i mean A REAL BOYFRIEND. M.U,fling ,unofficial relationships lang..i guess hanggang dun lang muna,atleast dba naexperience ko na rin yung may nagbabawal saken,yung may magtetext every single day,mag-iinspire sayo kahit papano,nagtutulak sayo para magsuklay,magmakeup,magdiet! come on! totoo naman diba?pag may boylet parang dapat lagi maganda???haha anyways..why am i saying this kahit alam kong wala kayo pakialam? narealize ko lang,di mo naman kelangan maging commited para mainlove..kasi LOVE IS FREE.you are free to love,kahit sinong gusto mo,yun nga lang don't expect something in return,that's how it works bizatch! :P para sakin,sa love dapat realistic tayo,be ready for what's gonna come,don't expect too much kasi no expectations,no rules! no rules, no dissapoinments! no dissapointments, no fuss! Kasi tao lang tayo, ang mga tao,likas na pasaway,di mo maiiwasan ang makasakit ng ibang tao,di mo rin maiiwasan ang masaktan di-buh!? so eto ang few advices ko sa mga bnreakan,sa mga nareject or nabusted at sa mga simpleng naheart broken lamang..


Pag nasaktan ka na,eto ang mga dapt mong gawin, alam ko iniisip mo tsong!
*mag-inom
*humanap ng rebound
*maghiganti bwahaha
*maglaslas(uso toh)
*maging bitter ever!
*isumpa ang dating karelasyon
*magmakaawa
*magmukmok all day everyday :'(

dang baby! old school na yan! sa tingin mo anu mangyayari sayo pag ginawa mo lahat yan?
-lalaki ang tyan mo
-makakasakit ka ng tao
-emo ka? heloow! anu ka neurotic? tsk tsk
-pagtatawanan ka lalo ng ex mo
-di mo alam mas nauna na syang isumpa ka,matagal na!
-lalong magmamaganda/magfeeling pogi ex mo
-papanget ka lalo ,wala na papatol sayo :p well ang famous line ko (choice mu yan eeeeehhh!)


sa halip na gawin mong miserable ang buhay mo taena! ipakita mo na isa kang malaking winner,at siguraduhin mong pag nakita ka nia ay matutulala sya sayo at sasabihing (shet! ang ganda/pogi pala nia,sayang!) oh dba? panis! sino ang loser ngayon? hahaha :))

ganun lang yun mga tol,tsong,parekoy,mare,bakla,gurl,shawty ,homie,dawg,brad,sis, and many more!be strong! pag nireject ka,di sya para sayo,marami pang tao sa mundo,at pag hindi masaya ang ending ibig sabihin di pa un ang katapusan.kasi dapat laging happy ending,parang fairy tales lang! :) ang importante sa lahat ng ginagawa mo meron kang dignidad,di ko sinasabi na dapat kasing taas ng mt.Everest ang pride mo,pero dapat mahal mo rin sarili mo above all,di rin ibig sabihin nun ehh maging vain ka masyado! kasalanan din un,mild lang..alamin mo ang halaga mo bago makita ng ibang tao yun para kwits,para matiwasay ang pamumuhay mo :) kasi kung talagang para sayo ang isang tao,kahit anu pang mangyare,mamatay man sya,babangon sya upang ibigin ka..shet grabe na itoh! kasi kung di ka naniniwala sa destiny,serindipity,faith,at kung anu anu pa,,in a way, totoo yun.may plano c Bro para sa ating lahat.(sino c Bro?- c Jesus! sabi ni Santino) hehe so yeah! ganun yun :) good things come for those who wait,don't act as if mamamatay ka na bukas pag iniwan ka ng iyong significant other.. kasi si Bro lang ang nakakaalam.ang maganda mong gawin.. LIVE YOU LIFE DAY BY DAY,DON'T DWELL ON WHAT HAS HAPPENED,BECAUSE YESTERDAY IS NOW PART OF YOUR PAST :0 dba?may point dba? dba? :) so cheer up honey! keep your head up high! look in the mirror and say, ang ganda ko oh! kung lalake ka naman, sabihin mo taena ampogi ko amp! that's the spirit kaya mo yan..pag confident ka,dami maghahabol sayo :)


-tapos! done! ah-uhm! peace ya'll ^_^v